Chapter 40

"You did it on purpose," I accuse him.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"You didn't say anything to prevent her from getting mad at me."

He shrugs.

"Could be."

***

We're at the beach house, and I'm somewhat apprehensive. I haven't stopped thinking about what I'm going to do when the vacation is over. I haven't been able to talk to Benton, and I can't bring myself to tell him that I want to stay here. I feel like I'm being selfish with him, and he doesn't deserve that. How do people manage to take everything lightly? I can't do it; I overthink everything and often act impulsively too. I'm not a balanced person; I make a lot of mistakes. Alana hasn't spoken to me since I splashed water on her brother, Evans hasn't pretended to be upset, he talks to me normally and jokes around occasionally. I sense that his sister has something else on her mind, and not getting mad about Evans has only been a good pretext to bring her anger to the surface.<