Chapter 17

Matthew

I guess being gay is more terrible...

I feigned a smile lowering my head as the silence dawned on us.

I was lost in my thoughts thinking how he might even react if I should confess how I felt about him or perhaps if he came to know I was gay he wouldn't think of me., I'm very sure he would be just as disappointed--- rather, I might lose him, including Billy whom I am coming to know to be my friend but I'm sure they'll just stay away from me when I'm out of my shells.

I shouldn't be worrying about this right now, no. I shouldn't worry about what would happen. I should just face now, tomorrow can deal with itself.

"Huh--- how's your health?" Keith broke the silence after I had gone quiet when he had mentioned he knew I wouldn't be gay which I would have found offensive but I dared not to.

Probably if I had been a straight guy I would have been like normal people who don't like gays. Or in my past life, I had offended a gay?

"Uh, fine."