Chapter 43

When we got into his car to get home, Edward turned the key into the ignition still in silence, focusing on the road or anything other than me. I moved uncomfortable on the bench, reflecting on what could have upset him like that. I could list the reasons, but, like every teenager who thinks she owns herself and owes no satisfaction to anyone, I did not feel willing to believe that any gesture of affection from my ex-boyfriend or any insinuation from my friends that I should take the opportunity to take my course in another city - in order to meet new people - could be reason enough for Edward's sudden

He didn't watch me while I was driving. It didn't turn on the sound. I didn't want to stifle that terrible silence between us. Although he didn't open his mouth even to sigh, I felt the words he didn't have the courage to say. I felt his accusations about me excluding our life together from any future, about my friends being very aware that we would