Chapter 26

Keila's POV

I drank to somehow calm down. I can think of both Papa, Mama, and Kean.

I want to be angry with Mama because she didn't tell me the truth. All I know is that Papa has another family, and that's okay. but every time I put myself around him, I somehow understand why he kept everything a secret from Cloud. He probably doesn't want to hurt us anymore because, no matter what happens, we are still his second family. No matter what happens, Papa's first family is still his choice. I can't imagine how much pain Mama went through. I can't stop crying while drinking alcohol.

I also feel that Papa really wants to make it up to me and Cloud, or maybe Mama as well, but it's still as difficult as getting rid of the pain and suffering we experienced before because of him. It's hard to grow up without a father. It's also hard to decide if I'm really going to let him into my life because maybe in the end I'll just be hurt because, at the end of the day, he's still there