Chapter 45

Scarlett’s POV

William is asking too much of me, more than any man has ever asked. The look of horror in his eyes when I told him I didn’t love him… I know I was shattering him, making him question what he’s doing wrong, and there’s no exact answer to that. William is someone who’s used to having everything go his way, to having his parents always solve things for him. He’s not used to standing up for what he wants and taking risks. Can I be with someone like that? I doubt it; I’m not emotionally stable myself, I can’t even control myself. I’m a walking disaster.

When I was little and had a crush on someone, I had to go to my mom for guidance on what to do. She’d hold me back and tell me to figure it out on my own because otherwise, I wouldn’t learn anything and would become dependent on her alone. I remember feeling nervous; my friends didn’t know what to do either. No one did. I was almost about to ask a teacher whom I trusted, but I held back.

That day,