Chapter 33

Valerie's POV

I kept on beating myself up knowing it would amount to nothing. I couldn't believe I had let Adam kiss me, I wanted to push him away. I really did but the more he kissed me the further I drowned in the warmth of his lips and the more I wanted him. 

He was a force I couldn't fight against and it irked me that he had such control over me. When I heard his voice in my room I thought I was dreaming, but I knew that if I was actually dreaming the first people to be in it would be my sons. I had only realized how far we had gone when I came all over his fingers. At that point the words Analisse had said a few days back came crashing down. 

I felt so dirty after it, I walked straight to the bathroom and scrubbed my skin but it was of no help, I could still feel his hands on my skin, around my neck, in my pussy. It was frustrating and tiring.

I had decided to stop sitting around pitying myself, I was going to look for Rendall