Chapter 81

Hannah

Days pass by quickly and I can't say if it's been actively easier dealing with the break up or not. For starters, I haven't been thinking much about Alex because I have found ways to distract myself from doing so.

In a bid to keep my mind busy, I've been going from bar to bar, drinking and getting drunk. I've also been eating more aggressively than I usually do, just to burn the extra calories by running marathons and dieting. It's been effective so far as I find myself worrying more about my weight and my diets.

Ruby once tried to set me up on a blind date but I didn't pull through with it. Even though Alex and I are no longer together, I still feel like having any new relationship with any other man is cheating.

After that day, Ruby and Amber have been trying to convince me to move on but it just seems all too foreign. I don't even consider it at all. Miriam on the other hand, believes that I shouldn