Chapter 79. Hard Choices

I wanted to leave. I wanted to get up and run as fast as I could, as far as I could from Josh, but at the same time, I felt glued to the bench. 

My heart was still racing but just not as much as it was at first when he had just dropped the bomb. I kept eye contact with him and forced myself to be calm even though it was the last thing that I wanted to do.

I knew that I was a vampire and that I could protect myself, but the truth here was that I still had not gotten a hang of who I now was.

I still had the mindset that I was just Lisa Morgan. I still had not fully come in terms with the fact that I was a blood sucking monster. 

So yeah, I could protect myself, but I didn’t fully know how to do that and maybe didn’t even want to do that; not yet. 

I had this fear that as soon as I killed or harmed someone using my new abilities; as soon as I sucked someone’s blood other than Bradley, I felt like there would be no turning back. 

And I wa