Chapter 5

Third day working on the same thing with Benton. Every day that passes, the fact of having to get married and work at the same time becomes more unbearable. We haven't had family dinners anymore, nor have we done anything beyond small interactions. My day is terrible when I see Alana; after our little moment of weakness, she went back to being the bitch she always was. I mean, she warned me, but I didn't expect it to be worse than before.

The few times we've seen each other, she speaks to me indifferently, and if I breathe the same air as her, it seems to bother her. I feel like saying hurtful things to her about how her ex-boyfriend was, but I'm not that much of an asshole, or maybe I just want to respect our deal. My friends haven't met Alana; I think she assumed that Benton is the only person I can call a friend, and it's not true, I'm twenty years old, and I'm still young. Just because my life is more settled than others doesn't mean I don't like to go out and meet people.