Chapter 12

James

I wake up feeling conflicted again. I had thought that after my conversation with Sarah I would be clearer on what I really want, and although Sarah’s idea was a big reminder of what I need to focus on, I can’t help but feel disturbed about my conflicting emotions. As much as I like Kate, I don’t think I’m in love with her. However, it seems like I’m trying so hard to convince myself of that. As much as I want to focus on getting on the good side of Troy Milner, I feel awful when I think of using Kate to get what I want.

I drag myself out of bed and hit the shower. I would love to skip school today and just lay in bed, but there’s a chemistry presentation today, and I doubt Kate can handle it without me. Speaking of Kate, it would be so nice to avoid her for a day. I love spending time with her, and we’ve done a lot of that in the past week, but every moment with her leaves me feeling more conflicted than ever.

I rush into the kitchen to prepare a quick break