Chapter 131. So Very Scared

Leah’s POV

The beginning of what, though? 

I think I already knew the answer to that. It could be the very beginning of the end. But knowing the answer did not mean that the question didn't keep gnawing at me. 

That was the question clawing at the edges of my mind as the ambulance bounced slightly over a pothole, jarring the pain in my shoulder and yanking me fully back into the moment. The pain was enough to wake me up, to kick me out of my mind. 

“Deep breaths,” the paramedic reminded, his voice gentle again, like he could sense the spiral I was caught in. I had forgotten that I was even at the back of an ambulance. He wanted me to breathe, which I was already doing. 

But I think what he meant was that he wanted me to calm down. 

So yeah, I tried. 

In. Out. In. Out. But even my breathing felt shaky now. I wanted to believe that the worst was behind me, that I could let go and just be taken car