Chapter 15

"Still, it's complicated. I think you consider me strong because you believe in this shell that I keep around me. But it's all a lie. I'm not totally unshakable. I don't want to move on and forget about my brother at some point. I'm a hypocrite, Eddie, because I can't do what I advise people so much. I don't accept that he died, even though I know he will never come back. That's the worst part, you know? The fact that I deceive so well that I even feel deceived in the same way."

"But if you are mature enough to understand this, then you are already in the healing process, L," he said as he moved the ice cream away from his lips. "You're still young... You will still go through several terrible situations, but if you are willing to understand them and learn from them, then everything will have been worth it."

"You talk about my age as if it really was a very great distance between us," I said jokingly, wanting to change the course of the conversation. Edward smiled. "It's