Chapter 20

It was not a pain that left me standing in time, watching what my brother liked and waiting for the moment when he would appear at the door. It was not a pain that made me break everything and wish that the whole river was interdicted until they found his body. It wasn't a pain that made me love life even more. It was a pain that shocked me. I was still in shock. And in every shock the person reacts very slowly to understand the facts, while inside a lot is happening. But no one understood. For them there was only one form of mourning, and if I didn't show it, I didn't feel enough.

Swallowing the burning in my throat, I turned my back on them, having the slight impression that the movement made my mother look out of the corner of her eyes. However, when I stopped at the threshold of the heavy wooden door and threw another look in the direction of the shadows that their bodies made, they did not make any sound for the hope of seeing me far from that house. So I c